Monday, March 30, 2009

Weekend Fun!!

Abby's Godmother Cheryl came into to town this weekend! We wish we could have spent more time with her but I know it is hard when you are coming from a distance and have a million places to be in 2 days. Hopefully she and her Husband will be back in Illinois soon so we can see them whenever we want (hint hint Cheryl :)). Here is some pictures we got of her with Abby and since we were trapped inside on Sunday because I wasn't feeling good and it was cold and snowy out we tried out Abby's Bumbo Seat. It was a success...for the first 10 minutes :).

Just hanging out...

Happy as can be...

I am soo over the seat Mom...GET ME OUTTA HERE!!!

Hope you all had a great weekend and a happy Monday!!

Friday, March 27, 2009

2 posts today...

WOW 2 posts in one day...its friday so what the heck!!

Before we were a Mom and Dad
We never tripped over toys Or forgot words to a lullaby.
We didn't worry whether or not our plants were poisonous.
We never thought about immunizations.

Before we were a Mom and Dad,
We had never been
puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
We had complete control of our minds and thoughts.
We slept all night.

Before we were a Mom and Dad
We never held down a screaming child So doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
We never looked into teary eyes and cried.
We never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
We never sat up late hours at night
Watching a baby sleep.

Before We were a Mom and Dad
We never held a sleeping baby just because
We didn't want to put her down.
We never felt our hearts break into a million pieces
When we couldn't stop the hurt.
We never knew that something so small
Could affect our lives so much.
we never knew that we could love someone so much.
We never knew we would love being a Mom or Dad

Before we were a Mom and Dad
We didn't know the feeling of
Having our heart outside our body.
We didn't know how special it could feel
To feed a hungry baby.
We didn't know that bond
Between a mother and Father and their child.
We didn't know that something so small
Could make us feel so important and happy.
Before we were a Mom and Dad
We had never gotten up in the middle of the night
Every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
We had never known the warmth,The joy,The love,The heartache,The wonderment
Or the satisfaction of being Parents
We didn't know we were capable of feeling so much, Before we were a Mom and Dad.

Just something I found online that made me smile :)


Abby's 2 month Pictures (Done at home obviously). I can't believe our little girl is 2 months old already!!

She loves her Baby legs :)!!

And Her Carseat.

and to add a little Flashback...what a Difference 2 months makes :)

My Favorite picture from the Hospital the day we brought her home!!

(Dad looks tired)

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. Abby's Godmother and my Bestfriend Cheryl and her Husband are on their way from Colorado. She hasn't met Abby yet and she will on Saturday. I will have more pictures on Monday!!

Thursday, March 26, 2009


So as I was logging on to my computer this morning and getting ready to start the day I was compelled to Check a blog I have been following called My Charming Kids.
There son Stellan has been ill and I wanted to see how his progress was going. He is unfortunately still Critical and I continue to pray for him everyday and pray for his family to have the strength to get through this horrible and scary time.

While I was there I came across a blog she mentioned called Bring the Rain Here is the link: It is the story of a women who has 3 beautiful Daughters, she was pregnant with her fourth when they found out that she had conditions that would make it impossible to live outside the womb. I went back to the beginning of the blog and read a few entries while I was getting through my emails and various phone messages from last night.
I suddenly found myself fighting back the tears. Those of you who know me, know that I tend not to cry in public or very easily for that matter, Sweet little Abby and being a mom has completely changed that. I found that I was putting myself in her shoes and thinking about the Ultrasound we had when they told us they were concerned about Abby's heart and all the emotion and scary thoughts we went through. Thank God everything turned out Ok but I found myself thinking what if it hadn't what if they told us the same thing this poor mother had to hear. My heart started to break and I slowly realized how amazing and wonderful her little life is, I started to realize what a miracle she truly is and how thankful I am she was given to us.

The last Month has been a tough one both finacially and emotionally for us. Having Donnie lose his job has really tested our marriage, but when I was reading this blog and putting myself in her place, suddenly none of that mattered. I am convinced that Abby is our miracle, our piece of heaven right on earth, to try to sympathize with this womans story is impossible. I can't imagine carrying your child for 9 months and than not being able to hold her every second of every day whenever you want. I can't imgaine the emptiness she feels when she looks down at her stomach and knows that there was a miracle there that god decided was too beautiful for earth.

I have said it many times over the last 2 months and I will continue to say it. Abby is the light in our lives and everything seems so small compared to the blessing that she is. We are going through a tough time but that is just it we are going and will get through it. God works in mysterious ways and for some reason he decided to test us at this time.

We will be stronger because of this not only as individuals but as a family.

I am so thankful that when I get home tonight I get to snuggle with my sweet little girl, that I get to smell her sweet skin and kiss her chubby cheeks. She is our blessing and our miracle and I will be forever thankful that god decided to give her to us.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

First post and my thoughts on motherhood and becoming a family

Hi Everyone!!
Well as most of you know Abby has arrived, and I really can't imagine our life without her.
She is the most beautiful blessing we could have ever gotten and she is such a miracle.

Her birthday was traumatic and not what we were expecting but in the end God has blessed us with a healthy, thriving and active child who is getting so curious about the world around her. She is what the What to expect book would deem as a challenging child though. She is dead set on sitting up even though she can't yet and she gets frustrated easily because she wants to do things that her little body won't let her do yet. She has a fight in her though and we think she is destined for great things, if the attitude she has is any indication of her future self we are going to have our hands full with this one :).


In my life I never knew that I could become so selfless, that I would no longer care if my clothes were perfect or if I got makeup on that day. If not doing or having those things means one more minute of time with my daughter I could care less.

Going back to work has been my biggest challenge, beacause while I enjoy my job, I am constantly wanting to be home with Abby. I feel like I am missing so much of her life and it tears me apart every morning I walk out the door to leave. I never thought I would be that kind of mom, I always thought I would be a working mother and that I would be ok with it. It is amazing how much your priorities change the second you lock eyes with your miracle.

I do find that the time I get with her now though is much more precious. I started taking it for granted when I was home those 6 weeks.

I took for granted that we would nap together in the afternoon while lifetime played in the background and Donnie made lunch, I took for granted those little sounds and smiles I got the second she got on her changing table. If going back to work has given me anything it is that I no longer take those small things for granted. I hug her tighter than I did before, I kiss her more than I ever did and even when she is screaming her head off I relish in the fact that I can pick her up and put her head on my chest and she turns from a screaming meanie (our little nickname for her) to my sweet little angel in 10 seconds flat.

I love being a mom and it is the greatest job in the world, it is something I wish everyone could experience in some way because it truly does change you overnight.

Becoming a Family...

We have settled into our routine somewhat and have started getting used to being an us instead of a we. We are still sleeping in shifts and Donnie and I are convinced that we won't sleep in the same bed until she is on her way to college. We do get to have dinner together most nights if we time it right and feed her first so she naps for a little bit, and the adult conversation usually happens in the small window between when we get up and when I leave for work in the morning but in the end it is all worth it when we get one of her big gummy smiles when she discovers something for the first time.

Watching Donnie become a Dad has really been an awesome experience though. He is so patient with her and really is great at calming her. I think we have a new appreciation for each other that we may have lost or even not had before. Being parents has given us a new found respect as well.

All in all deciding to have a baby is one of the greatest decisions we ever made and we feel so incredibly blessed that God gave us our little angel and the light in our life, and that we get to be a part of this miracle.

More later and I will leave you with some abby pictures :)